one week to go before strama deadline... can i make it?
before i start off on my quest for excellence, i just wanted to get these thoughts out of my head. as if!
i've always had difficulty dealing with boys. especially when my feelings are engaged. being the tomboy i am, i can always go the "one of the boys" route. but when i need to be different, and when one of those boys means something beyond friendship for me, i get all lost. i never really learned how to play that male/female thing. and being the real segurista person i am, i am appalled at the idea of even hinting that i feel something. it's not because i was this way before. it's just because i'd been burned really early in life, like when i was still in grade school. i know, kids are jerks sometimes. but when they grow up, sometimes they stay the same too.
i know all those cliches. no pain, no gain. no guts, no glory. but come on! the thing is, is good-natured teasing a good enough basis for taking a risk? i think not. i've waited this long to get involved, i think i deserve a louder knock on my door.
guys, i really need your help on this. i want concrete true-to-life advice. none of those stuff that serve my ego. how can i let him know he's ok with me without actually saying it? i think i've done my part, like not complaining when i get teased. the problem is, i don't feel chummy enough to ask him point blank about himself. we only had a relationship based on proximity, and not even that close in the first place. my best guy bud said that i'll know only when he's finally out of my life. the suspense is killing me.
5 comments:
1. ferris left...
Monday, 15 August 2005 10:58 am
we've been talking about these stuffs for god-knows how long. and i can't promise you that the advice i'll give will work on your situation. all i can say is just be true to your self. like i always say, if he likes you. he'll do something about it. that's it. you said, you've done your part. you've let your guard down na. it's really up to him now.
most importantly, if they/ he/ whoever doesn't do something about it, it's gonna be their/ his loss. they just don't know how wonderful you are. so just be happy, live life. that's the only thing that matters.
2. roge left...
Tuesday, 16 August 2005 1:46 am
hayy...sabi nga ng nanay ko...pag ang lalaki nagkagusto, kahit haranging mo ng pison, di ka nya lulubayan...no matter how shy or introverted he is...but if he doesn't, wala na tayo magagawa jan...so the fact that he's not doing anything about it despite all the teasing means either he's not sure, or ayaw nya talaga...but don't wait for him...it's not the natural process of life...adam waited for eve to come along, not the other way around...if it's meant to be, it will be :)
3. CNBGirl left...
Wednesday, 17 August 2005 3:28 pm
amen to what ferris said...
just go on living the happy and fun life you have.
4. jonna left...
Thursday, 18 August 2005 11:40 am
i agree with roge. men cannot stand not chasing the woman they really like. if he doesn't make a move, then maybe it's not meant to be. but hey, don't get too preoccupied thinking about it. who knows, he may just be a serial killer wrapped in an attractive package hehe. the fact that you don't really know him deeply is enough reason for you not to expend yourself thinking what might & could have been. maybe he's not worth it at all :)
JONNA B.
5. roge left...
Saturday, 20 August 2005 1:29 am
well, maybe it's not meant to be now...pero malay mo later ;)
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