hold on to whatever will get you through

little gems of wisdom from a dinner date and a fruitful conversation, take one.

sometimes we're selling ourselves too short.

clarity

i can't be sure that this state of mind is not of my own design
- john mayer, something's missing

if i had my way, i would spend my life:

when fandoms collide

being an only child, i am too used to park myself in front of the computer and spend hours upon hours on the internet without feeling the need for face to face interaction. which is why i think it's easy for me to be interested in things that my family and friends are normally not interested in. or obsess on them too much on my own.

tv's fall season in the us is commencing this week, with most of the shows holding their season premieres over the next five days. how i met your mother is starting off season 6 tomorrow night, and glee (with charice) will be premiering on tuesday (with an early telecast on local cable on wednesday afternoon). but the most anticipated show for me this week is the season two premiere of my current biggest obsession, the 30-minute pop culture-laden college sitcom called community.

drinking is just the way we keep away the cold

mum was always telling me that i had super sensitive instincts. i'm not sure if i really believed in that kind of thing or not, but today proved how right mum was to think it.

i had a dinner date with a friend this evening, and obviously that was uppermost in my mind today. and all the while i was also thinking of someone else whom i hadn't seen in a long time, and couldn't help wishing that i would.  tonight. the thought that i knew just how likely it would happen (which was not at all) was the one thing that kept me from actually doing anything short of actually begging.

out of the blue, i got a message. from that someone else. and the news that followed that first message had me silently freaking out and i still don't know if it's the good or bad kind. if i believed in signs, i'd have thought that the universe was telling me something in a massive billboard along the highway. but what this was a sign for is anyone's guess because i don't remember asking the universe for signs at all.

you're the only one i want, the only one i need, the only one on my mind all the time.

- ben lee, birthday song 

something always brings me back to you

Sara Bareilles - Gravity - Live from Abbey Road

this is my new favorite song.  because of this i got to see a heart-rending dance from so you think you can dance season 5 (which i totally missed because i didn't even watch the show).  more importantly, i discovered this song from a fan video, of all things.

surprisingly, it turned out to be another song with lyrics that pandered to that insanity i just can't let go of.  just like hundreds of other mushy, sentimental, angsty, sad songs before it.

you're neither friend or foe though i can't seem to let you go
one thing that i still know is that you're keeping me down

-- sara bareilles, gravity