drinking is just the way we keep away the cold

mum was always telling me that i had super sensitive instincts. i'm not sure if i really believed in that kind of thing or not, but today proved how right mum was to think it.

i had a dinner date with a friend this evening, and obviously that was uppermost in my mind today. and all the while i was also thinking of someone else whom i hadn't seen in a long time, and couldn't help wishing that i would.  tonight. the thought that i knew just how likely it would happen (which was not at all) was the one thing that kept me from actually doing anything short of actually begging.

out of the blue, i got a message. from that someone else. and the news that followed that first message had me silently freaking out and i still don't know if it's the good or bad kind. if i believed in signs, i'd have thought that the universe was telling me something in a massive billboard along the highway. but what this was a sign for is anyone's guess because i don't remember asking the universe for signs at all.

you're the only one i want, the only one i need, the only one on my mind all the time.

- ben lee, birthday song