the mind never rests

life is just one long lesson plan.

after the frying pan that was my stint at agsb, today i've jumped into the fire.

actuarial exams are never easy. not when i was still working in a life insurance company. especially not now that i'm working for a non-life company and out of the actuarial circle. but i've been thinking about giving it another shot before giving it up altogether. the exam i'm taking is a much easier topic to wrap the head around than the first exam; besides, my cousin, who's 7 years younger, is taking the same exam and i'm presented with a ready-made study partner.

so here it is. less than 6 weeks till exam day, and loads of topics to study. some i'm more than familiar with, and some i know i really have to put some effort into. but i always was a crammer; and though i hated being one, it seemed the only way i can get anything done.

this is me finally taking charge of my future.

all mixed up

one disadvantage of discontent is the tendency to take on too many things at the same time.

i just realized that from now until next week, there are several things i must be able to accomplish:

1. finalize the yearbook layout (this is my high school yearbook, take note!)
2. finish my external and industry analysis for my strama (which i haven't even started)
3. for that matter, revise my introduction to clarify my strama topic (and have it approved, naman!)
4. study for two actuarial exams: social insurance on wednesday and group insurance on friday, which, as expected, i haven't studied for either
5. do my overdue perman assignment(s), due thursday
6. finally getting serious about my work project, since we now have a go-signal in the guise of the license purchase. this entails reviewing the proposed contracts, constructing forms, contracting an actuary, assessing the financial projections... the list goes on and on

this isn't a sudden brainwave, mind. i have realized a few weeks ago that i might have really bad scheduling issues. nevertheless, i have decided to invest time and money indiscriminately and now i cannot put my money where my mouth is. looking at the list above, i can only wonder at how i'm going to fit any of them in my schedule. or get the necessary research underway.

hay. what i wouldn't give for a laptop right now.